Good God It Really Has Been Ages

Um...yeah. I haven't even logged onto Xanga in months, and I'm not sure anyone's going to read this, but what the heck. I think one or two people might still be subscribed to me, plus every entry is part of a historical record.

I work at Target in Oxford Valley, and in a short time I might be transferring to...Williamsport? It's going to be an interesting ride all right. I'm looking forward to it.

Concert wise, so far this year my friend Brian and I have seen Rush, Asia, the Moody Blues, Trans-Siberian Orchestra, and two Genesis tribute bands by the name of The Musical Box and Turn It On Again. Cities visited include Detroit, Baltimore, Wilkes-Barre, Westbury NY, Atlantic City, and Glenside PA. These have been the highlights of the year so far.

Other than that, no major news...except THE BEARD IS BACK and it is longer than ever. Maybe I'll post a picture later.

Anyway, the bet I refferred to last time is off, because my friend changed his mind and is also supporting Obama along with myself. You can be sure that made me happy!

Currently Listening Love Songs: A Compilation...Old and New By Phil Collins see related

A little wager on the election

Anyone who knows me know that I am a hard-core Democratic supporter. I have a good friend Brian who is a Republican. So, we decided to get in the spirit of things we will put a little wager on the race. We are planning a small three-day, two-night trip to Boston sometime in the near future--so if the Democrats win, he will pay for the whole thing, and if the Republicans win, I will pay for the whole thing. This will be interesting, but I'm confident in my Democratic guys (and gals). Also, we made a much smaller wager on the outcome of Pennsylvania--whoever's party looses has too pay for a meal for the other at the China House Buffett in Shamokin Dam, PA.

In other news, I am now 22. It feels the same as being 21 so far I think. That's really all for now.

Hey folks. It's been a decent week. I just worked a ten hour shift at Target, but that is not bad. My feet hurt a tad but it's no big deal. But I'm tired, so that's all I will write today!

Today's Quote: "You just made a huge withdrawl from the First Bank of Lies", from South Park. Who was it that said it? I don't remember, one of the boys.

I'm still here, and I am keeping my head up and thinking positive. Now two full years into a stretch of time that can be best discribed as a long, dark tunnel with occasional lights, I have seen signs that the lights I see ahead of me are the lights at the end of the tunnel. However, I have been wrong about that before. But I had a two-week or so period where things actually got up to a "5" on the proverbial "1 to 10" scale, rather than their normal "3" or "4", and that in itself is something worth celebrating.

My job at Target has been going well and I've felt better since I've been there. I have been in touch with my friend Greg in Germany--he is married now as of November. I've really only been able to see one friend and he lives far away, about 120 miles, so it is expensive for the gas for us to visit each other. I have a couple other friends I see fairly regularly but I don't know how I can count them--they have younger mental ages than physical ages and I don't know if they even can form a deeper bond of trust and friendship.

I am starting to think that there is a dementor living at my parents house. I'm not sure where it is; which walls it is between or under which rug, but it is here, and I feel its presence clearly. This place, or more accurately the people who live here, are full of so many bad memories that it eats away at me just to be here. It's an unhealthy and dysfunctional relationship. However, I don't plan to be here more than a few months longer if I can do anything about it.

I have had a recent spurt of songwriting and storywriting, which is good and lifts my spirits. It seems to have ebbed off in the last few days but I think I can grab it back. Also, I am following the Presidential race with interest. I need to find a new book to read. The Stand was excellent, it was nice and thick and it took me a while to finish the whole thing. More books should be that long.

I have also been single for over a year now but I am taking steps to change that as well.

I just have to keep trying to think positively about things, not dwell on things that cause me pain, things that I cannot do anything about. "cool water" I tell myself when I feel negative emotions edge into my mind. I should just take positive action about things. The lights at the end of this tunnel might not be a mirage this time--it may just be the real thing.

Currently Listening Strictly Inc. By Strictly Inc, Tony Banks see related

I have now had this blog for three years. It feels more like thirty, because I can scarcely believe I wrote anything in the first year of the blog, it feels so alien to me now. This blog is older than dirt. I'm even thinking of adopting a new name for the blog.

Anyway....eh, what can I say? Things are looking up for once. They really seem to like me at my new job, which is at Target. I had financial worries about being able to pay my bills but with this income comming in I am much less worried. My songwriting and story writing are still lagging, but I except it as part of the natural eb and flow of these things.

I also have a bit of a romantic interest in a certian person. I won't go into detail because there is a small but possible chance this girl could link to this blog from my Facebook sight where she has friended me. I am unsure of her feelings for me but we seem to have a lot in common. I am trying to think of the best way to move foward but it is difficult because I usually don't get home from work until after midnight and it is often too late to talk to her online, and that is about the only way I can reach her.

Anyway, Rachel is returning from Gettysburg soon...yay! Happy happy, even though with my mostly-evenings schedule the time we will get to spend together is limited. We still have Star Wars Battlefront ("Grenade! Grenade! Good Day! Good Day!") to play, as well as I'm sure a bunch of old Disney movies we haven't seen in a while. Plus random trips to Borders (which is right next to the Target, incidentally).

Tomorrow I'm working early. Well, 9:30am whereas I am accustomed to slowly getting up around 12pm or 1pm. It should be interesting to see how my body reacts to a 7:30am alarm clock ringing.

I'm still terribly out of touch with all my old friends. If anyone I know is reading this and will be in the Newtown area durring Christmastime, let's hang out.

That's all for now. I'll write more later, and I hope there are still a few people interested enough to read!